My Spirit Has Been Lifted…

This post is by Tracy L., contributing author to Our Neighborhood Blog. Tracy is a wife and mother and writes a blog: Adoption Journey (bringinghomeboylaroy.blogspot.com) which tells the unfolding story her family’s path of adoption.

I haven’t blogged in awhile. I haven’t felt like it. I have been suffocating in self-pity for the past week.

Since we announced that we are adopting, I have been met with reactions I didn’t anticipate. I remember when I announced each of my pregnancies, it was received with excitement and encouragement. I thought that would be the case when we announced our adoption too. After all, we are being blessed with a son. That is exciting, right?

Since I didn’t expect it, it was rather difficult for me to digest. I got angry, I got depressed, I was hurt. I have spent the week just being sad. I spent the week doubting.

Things are not going as I thought they would.

Hmmm, did you read that last sentence? There in lies the problem.

Things are not supposed to go the way I think they should go. Things are supposed to go the way He has planned.

This morning, before my husband left for work, he told me about his quiet time. His words were so encouraging. I realized so many things this morning as he was talking to me. And since then God has shown me so much more.

My realizations not only came from my husband, but I have been listening to worship music this morning and every song has been an encouragement.

In Christ alone … He can move mountains … The more I seek You … Empty Me … I just want to wait on you, my God … Monster … (okay, that last one was more of how I was feeling before)

The Lord spoke to me through my husband and through worship music. My spirit is lifted. I know that we are doing His will and that is all that matters.

Yes, we may lose friends. Yes, our families may not understand or agree with us adopting.

But we are doing His will!

(you can follow me at www.faithfuljourneythroughstruggles.blogspot.com or www.bringinghomeboylaroy.blogspot.com)

About Tracy L.

First, and foremost, I am a child of God. My journey of faith has not always been consistent. My Heaven Father got me through my adolescent years. Without Him, I would not be here today. Even though he was there for me, I turned and walked away. Even though I walked away, He has always been with me. I am thankful that I have a Heaven Father full of grace and mercy. I am a wife. I have been married to my husband, Rob, for 9 years. Our journey has not always been faithful. The first few years of our marriage were empty and full of selfishness. God has a wonderful way of taking away things that are in the way of His direction for your life. It was in that time that God found us and we recommitted our lives to Him and to each other. I am a mom. We have been blessed with five beautiful children. We are in our second year of homeschooling. I am extremely blessed and excited that God has called me to be at home. We are also in the beginning stages of adopting a little boy. I look forward to what God has in store for our family.
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One Response to My Spirit Has Been Lifted…

  1. Tracy says:

    Thank you, Diane. Your encouragement and prayers mean a lot to us. God has connected us with other families who are adopting children from the same area. We have been truly blessed.

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